Angelina's Wondering About Love
5/14/2005
all is well, but now i have a crazy landlord lady who is convinced
without reason that i have pulled her cats tail which is now broken
(probably hit by a car) and that for this i must move out. seems
that it isnt just love that makes people crazy...
Hey Daryl,
Life sounds pretty good in South America, and your girlfriend sounds cute. I
love the way she sticks her fingers in your mouth, I can see that annoying
you!!! Like the static things too!!! You always did go for the pretty ones. I
think it's good that you've found someone to hang out with. Life is a funny
things and love is even funnier!!! Watch out I'm about to dive into a deep and
meaningful!!
Lately I've been doing a lot of wondering about love. Especially the version of
love we get from the TV and Hollywood movies and fairy tales. It just never
seems to turn out the way that they say it should, have you noticed this?? I
wonder why I desire the company of another human being. I ask myself is this
real!! Or is it because I am afraid to be alone. Loneliness is another
interesting thing. I notice inside myself these day how loneliness makes me
completely irrational and forces me to do outrageous things. It convinces me
that it's a terrible thing to be alone, and that I must do something immediately
to rectify the problem. It's quite outrageous really and very embarrassing. But
as I sit here writing all this to you, a smile comes to my face, because I'm
thinking there's more to this than meets the eye, and that possible I might kick
this habit and stop acting from loneliness. And yet there is a catch 22 here,
because as I contemplate my words I also feel that it's a weakness to want to
have someone in your life as well!!! Why would I think this and how can this be
and why would I set my life up in this manner??
I guess this then brings me to my relationship and I guess you hit the nail on
the head when you said that I was looking for someone to settle down with. It's
funny because I never really spoke about my relationship much, and I think that
is because at some level inside me I knew that things weren't ok and I didn't
really want to let people know that.
Anyway what are you planning to do once your leave Buenos Aires?? Do you want to
continue traveling or are you thinking about going home??
Re going to the gym, pilates helps to build up the core muscles around the
stomach and can be quite effective if you want to strength that region. But I'm
a die hard yoga fan because it gives you flexibility whiles provided a mind and
body connection. I always feel better after doing yoga!! Centre and ground and I
have a lot more clarity.
Talk to you soon
Angelina